akhirnya....

Akhirnya sampai juga di penghujung Spring semester 2006. Hari ini hari terakhir kuliah. Senin-Rabu depan hari besar, final exams. Satu pertanyaan, apakah ini semua semata-mata urusan nilai? Pertanyaan ini tentu muncul di benak pikiran kebanyakan mhs seminari. Saya sih mending ngaku aja deh, I'm neither a sharp A student or even a sharp student. I'm just a student, nothing more nothing less. Nilai bukan sesuatu yg dikejar sampai jadi "maniak" belajar dlm artian sempit, tapi itu juga bukan jadi pembenaran utk nyantai2. Well, in some degree, mungkin effort semester ini masih ada kurangnya, walaupun ada perbaikan sedikit dari semester lalu. It's all about adjustment. Semester ini banyak hal yg didapat, tapi hal2 yg msh hrs dikejar dan di-improve jg masih banyak.
God is so gracious - saya masih bisa survive well. Memang sih, ada saat2 up and down, and that's common. Kalau mau dipikir2, sebetulnya semester ini dpt banyak berkat juga. Mulai dari pindah tempat tinggal, dapat "kaki" tambahan utk jalan kesana kesini, dapat pekerjaan dan langsung in-tune dgn co-workers sampai si bos kmrn ini nanya, "Are you going to work here again next semester? I hope you will." Wah, sampe kaget dengernya, soalnya ada tmn ku yg kepengen banget pulang ke Indo summer ini ga bisa pulang krn dia kerjanya di dept. lain (yg gajinya lbh tinggi dikit), tapi bosnya punya policy sekali tinggalkan kerja, ya out utk seterusnya. Sementara saya malah didatengin si Bos dan diharap utk kerja lagi semester dpn. Udah gitu semester ini masih bisa ambil 5 classes pula. Blm lagi pelayanan di grj yg utk saat ini perlu energi extra. Wah, kalo dah ngomong soal grj? Ga ada beres2nya......
Hmm Spring semester, many things happened, yes indeed (sigh...) I did both smart and foolish things. Forgive me, Lord, sometimes I let You down, sometimes I screw up, sometimes I act so stupid and foolish in front of You. Yet, I know nothing happened in my life apart from Your beautiful plan.

I want to grow, not just because I want to be the best for You, or just because I want the best from You,
but mostly because I know that You are the BEST in me.

I want to learn, not just because I want to know everything, or just because I still don't know many things,
but mostly because You knew ALL THINGS.

I want to share, not just because I can give something, or just because I have gained many things,
but only because You have given me EVERYTHING.

I want to be a little more like Jesus everyday.

........yeach, go for it, Z!

--- sitting @ LU Library ---