approaching the Good Friday

"I am a sinner.
Unworthy and vile.
My heart grows cold as sin spreads beneath the flesh that has vowed to keep it from showing.
I swear of the change that finds itself held at arms length.
Held back as if the cure were flawed.
Freedom feels the brush of my breath as it stands there, waiting - Waiting for me to embrace it, yet I would rather embrace death.
Darkness is the cover that keeps my contrite heart cloaked in security. Veiled in the sin around me.
I am miserable.
Hell is in my heart as my heart is in hell.
The blood in my veins - the beats are my own. Selfish.
The center of my world within me, eating away at the core of the life that was never meant to be my own .
The pain.
The anguish.
The hurt.
It's an intolerable acceptance.
An accepted torture.
A torture that doesn't have to survive.
There is light.
Before my face, Freedom cries.
Freedom is in pain.
Freedom is in anguish.
Freedom is hurt.
Like me.
Freedom took my place.
Freedom is Christ.
Freedom is only Christ.
My heart slows in pace as death squirms on the floor before me.
Christ took my place."


written by my ol' roommate,
Gary Nathan "Nate" Smith, Jr.
*go .. Nate*

anggota DPR & laptop baru

(I've just got this from a fren.)


Anggota DPR: "Mba, laptopnya salah."
Customer Service: "Salah gimana pak?"
Anggota DPR: "Laptopnya nggak mau hidup."
CS: "Sudah tekan tombol power pak?"
Anggota DPR: "Tombol powernya sebelah mana mba?"

****

Anggota DPR: "Mba, saya mau konek ke internet nggak
bisa, kenapa ya?"
Customer service: "Nggak bisanya kenapa?"
Anggota DPR: "Saya ketik www.playboy. com, gambarnya
nggak keluar."
Customer service: "Pesan errornya apa pak?"
Anggota DPR: "Nggak ada pesan error, pokoknya saya
ketik playboy.com di addressnya, nggak muncul gambar
sama sekali."

Customer service: "Bapak koneksi internetnya pakai
apa, dial up, hotspot?"
Anggota DPR: "Pakai gambar yang ada tulisan e
(maksudnya internet explorer)."
Customer service: "Maksudku, bapak langganan
internetnya pakai ISP apa, lalu cara koneksi
internetnya pakai dial-up atau hotspot, mungkin
settingnya ada yang salah."
Anggota DPR: "ISP itu apa sih mba?"
Customer service: "Wah ini sih 50 x 2 pak.."
Anggota DPR: "Apa tuh mba?"
Customer service: "CAPE' DEH!!"

******

Anggota DPR: "Mba' saya ingin daftar account di
yahoo.com kok nggak bisa ya?"
Customer service: "Nggak bisa kenapa pak?"
Anggota DPR: "Ada tulisan, paswort is nat long inof,
suld bi mor ten 8 karakter"

Customer service: "Itu maksudnya, password bapak
minimal 8 huruf."
Anggota DPR: "Oooo...oke deh.., saya coba dulu."

Anggota DPR: "Mba password minimal delapan huruf itu
delapannya pakai angka 8 atau ejaan delapan?"
Customer service: "Maksudnya?"
Anggota DPR: "Saya suda tulis di kolom password
minimal 8 huruf, tapi bingung mau tulis delapannya,
pakai angka delapan atau ejaan huruf 'delapan'."

Customer service: "Ketik ini aja pak..C Spasi D."
Anggota DPR: "Apa tuh?"
Customer service: "CAPE' DEH !!!"

****

Anggota DPR: "Mba' kalau muter film di laptop, gimana
caranya ya?
CS: "Ada dvd playernya kan pak?"
Anggota DPR: "Sebelah mana tuh mba?"
CS: "Disamping kanan, pak. kalau di tekan tombolnya
nanti, piringan discnya keluar."
Anggota DPR: "Ooooo.... yang keluar itu, piringan disc
ya? Udah patah tuh kemarin."
CS: "Kok bisa patah?"
Anggota DPR: "Saya kira tempat buat naruh gelas
minuman."

******

Anggota DPR: "Komputer saya rasanya kena virus"
CS: "Virus apa tuh pak?"
Anggota DPR: "Kurang tahu juga, setiap mau cetak ke
printer, selalu ada tulisan kennot fain printer."
CS: "Itu mungkin salah setting pak."
Anggota DPR: "Settingnya udah bener kok, kemarin aja
bisa nyetak, tapi sekarang nggak bisa. Saya sudah
tunjukkin printernya di depan laptop, tetap aja dia
terus-terusan "searchng printer not found." Kayanya
webcamnya rusak, nggak bisa lihat printer."

CS: "Mendadak laper nih Pak, ingin makan tape.."
Anggota DPR: "Lho..kok begitu?"
CS: "TAPE DEH !!!!"

********

Anggota DPR: "Mba, kalau mau baca blognya si artist
anu dimana ya?"
CS: "Bapak cari aja di google."
Anggota DPR: "Tapi si artist anu nggak kerja di google
kok mba, saya tahu persis."

Capeeek deeehhh..... ......... .... !!!!

LU student the next Idol????

After a while, our campus' splashpage finally announce that Phil Stacey is one of our students (a DLP.. of course).
I've been wondering two questions.
1. Why it took so long for my bosses to find out that he's a Liberty student?
but hey......
2. Why in the world would they check everyone of them, whether they are one of our students or not? Come on, get a life, do they have any other thing to do besides that?

I only follow the performances once in a while, so I haven't heard his voice.... at least in full attention..... yet, probably after this I will.
By the way, on his interview I've read that he wants to get a PhD, so people can call him Doctor Phil. Now that's quite interesting, knowing that nowadays they call it, "PhD - Permanent head Damage." how about... Pizza hut Driver? Or perhaps, Pathetic home Dreamer, .... Patiently hoping for a Degree, .... wow ... tons of abbreviations. hahaha.... Anyway, don't even think about it now, Phil. The only thing you have to care about is your vocal performance. PhD will come... someday.. If you win, I can almost sure that they will try their best to bring you on campus. That's what I can tell.

Vote?
Hmm.... we'll see.

difference

Gue baru balik dari luar kota. Eh pulang-pulang kamar gue berantakan. Errgh rada kesel. Roommate gue emang udah minta ijin sih, ada temennya dateng dari Nashville, Tennessee. Tapi dasar sesama bule gile, gue baru pulang masi cape eehh ni kamar brantakan banget kaya kapal pecah. Baju, celana, daleman, kaos kaki, topi, pada berserakan ngga jelas. Bantal cadangan gue disarungin kaus t-shirt (huh??).
Emang bule2 rata2 bisanya ngeberantakin rumah gitu ya? (generalisasi tingkat tinggi)

*grin*

listening

I'm now listening to this CD Album. A bit shock... why? Because all these years I knew that his music is kinda more contemporary pop, especially that he's doing lots of contemporary P&W stuffs. A friend told me that he's just launched a different album. I was a little curious about it and when I dropped by at Lifeway today, I listened a sample of his CD. As I listened, hey u know what... he apparently sounds better in this album. However, I realize that his voice is almost similar with Groban, the only difference is that Groban's voice is thicker and more focused/bold. I have compared Travis' voice when he leads P&W concert, he sounded to be shouting/screaming on that one, but this one I think he sounds a lot better. (Taking a voice lesson, eh..?) Oh well.. this is a neo-classical album anyway. I do enjoy it, the only comment I have on this one: too many minor tune songs, maybe because these songs took the lyrics from Psalms. Is he a Grobaners or Grobanians or watever???? Man... once I almost wanna shout to this guy, "BE YOURSELF!!!" But soon I realized, you cannot resist if one has a similar voice tone with other people. If I have to give a score with 1-10 scale basis, I would give him probably 8- =)

lesu

Satu lagi burung baja terjatuh....
hingga kapan Indonesia kan berpeluh...?

*Pa SBY, jangan patah semangat ye, kite-kite dari jauh sini berdoa buat bangsa dan negare.*

plea

Terimakasih Tuhan.
Setahun berlalu
Engkau mengingatkanku
tuk menghitung berkatMu
dan menghitung hari-hariku
Mungkin masih panjang
atau akan segera hilang,
Aku menengadah
mohon tanganMu yang kuat
memegangku setiap saat
dengar bisikan anakMu

Amin.

Lynchburg
March, 2007

suprise!!!!!

Hidup kalo ga ada kejutan emang kurang rame.... hehehe...
Well, hari ini Tuhan kasi hari yang cukup unik. Seminggu ini udah dingin terus, eh tau2.. hari ini rada anget dikit...60'F (brp 'C ya, itung ndiri deh), terus hari cerah banget, kalo jalan kaki ada angin semilir, matahari pokonya kinclonk deh kaya sunlight. Wadew.. gw sampe kagum.

Hari ini di tengah keramaian klise sebagaimana layaknya orang berulang tahun yang diberondong ucapan selamat, ada yang kirim message ke gw, begini bunyinya:
"happy birthday ka Jimmy, hoi happy birthday ya, kapan maen ke bandung sm christin hehehe"
Pas dibaca rada kaget juga. I'm like... uhm what???? Woiyy salah sambung. Sapaaa tuh Jimmy, sapaa tuh Christin?
Anyway, selain urusan 'pesen nyasar', hari ini kata orang2 sini gw sudah resmi masuk golongan "half to half of a century"... dan keliatannya buat org bule, usia 25 taun itu dinanti2... Gw sih biasa2 aja. Yang jelas cuma satu, gue selangkah lebih maju menuju liang lahat...

Diluar dugaan, hari ini roommate gw bikin ulah. As it's always been in America, disini yg ber-ultah itu justru ditraktir... Tadi gue pikir kita cuma pergi bertiga/berempat doank sama adiknya, eh ternyataa belakangan gw baru nyadar yang ngumpul banyakan. Oh my....
Kita pergi ke Neighbor's Place, tempat dessert favorit disini. Makan NY cheesecake yang gedenya setengah batu bata, gw makannya dari semangat 45 sampe eneg. Yang laen biar cowo2 sehat dan pelahap porsi kuli, itu dessert ngga ada yang tuntas tuh... hieh hieh hieh....

on your wedding day, cous....

3-3-2007
Now that you are to begin the journey. Sorry I wont come for sure, but my prayer's with you both. However, I got your Wed Bulletin's before your D-day.... :p

*he... Bang, .... kau jaga baik-baik ya kakakku*