...the fifth cry

Khotbah hari ini pas sesuai dgn apa yg gua lg rasain. Sebelumnya ta' jelasin dulu, hari-hari terakhir ini somehow I feel alone. Well, perasaan bisa dan seringkali menipu, tapi itulah yg terjadi. Tante Linda & Om Sam pergi terbang ke SanFran, jd yg biasanya weekend main ke rmh mrk, kali ini gak. One of my friends visit his girlfriend @ Atlanta. And then, my roommate and his girlfriend pergi ke Richmond. Nah, sendiriiiiii dah (well gak jg sih).
Pastor Dave hari ini pas banget khotbah the 5th Cry of Jesus @ the Cross. "Eli.. Eli.. Lamasabakhtani" My God, My God, why has Thou forsaken Me?

Ini sesuatu yg cukup berat utk dimengerti. Jesus-God the Father-Holy Spirit, itu Oknum yg sama, the Holy One. Sepanjang Perjanjian Lama, TUHAN selalu menyatakan diri sbg Allah yg Satu. Baru pas Tuhan Yesus naik ke kayu salib, ada seruan spt itu. Kalo dipikir2 kenapa ya?
Waktu peristiwa itu terjadi, bukan hanya Tuhan Yesus ditinggalkan BapaNya, tapi saat itu jg langit gelap gulita. The darkness people would never be able to imagine.
Tadi Pastor Dave nanya, "have you ever been into a place in your life where you're at somewhere so dark???" (darkness disini bisa literal/figural). That question really stucked in my mind.
Well, there's a good news. The Great Architect of this world has been to the most darkest life situation to bear the burden of the whole world so that we can pass through some of the toughest and darkest life situation. Amin!!! Dia sama sekali gak ada salah. Not even guilty. None! Zip! Nada! Hmm...
Pastor Dave cerita wkt dia tugas sbg tentara di Vietnam War, cuma dia satu2nya prajurit yg selamat di divisi-nya yg bisa kembali pulang ke tanah air. Disana dia tiap hari dengar keluhan, rintihan, kesedihan teman2 sesama prajurit yg merasa sendiri, tertinggal, kesakitan. No family, no spouse, no children, only the weapon and themselves. Ada prajurit yg tertembak di dada, dia menjerit, "Mama, it hurts...Mama..." Yg lain merintih," Dad...I'm alone here."
Hmm, gua jadi kepikiran. Kadang ada kalanya di tempat nun jauh dr rumah ini merasakan kesendirian... loneliness. Something that has been a problem since God created mankind.
Itu baru "perasaan" sendiri, pdhal gua gak sendiri. Sementara Yesus bukan merasa, tapi mengalami langsung kesendirian dan kegelapan hebat. Dua kombinasi yg paling mengerikan....
Khotbah tadi intinya ngingetin, God in the flesh, died in a spiritual death. God of light, died in a terrible darkness, all because He wants to redeem us. No darkness will ever compare to the darkness of the cross. Thank God for the cross!